What I've Learned from Tinlee

    I know it has been awhile since I have posted anything, but we have been pretty busy lately (or at least trying to keep ourselves busy).  Last week was a pretty good week for us, there were a couple of "rough" days in there for us, but we always manage to make it through those bad days with prayer and support from each other. God always seems to give us a "good" day after our "bad" days......One thing that kept upsetting me last week is I know that people have to go on with their lives and that some people may have already forgotten about Tinlee, and that just crushes me inside!!! I want so badly for the entire world to be touched by Tinlee ( I know that is a little extreme..haha), but I want her life to continue touching other peoples lives for many many years....
   
    Wow!! The things that I have learned from my little girl. She has taught me so much in her short life. One of my biggest weaknesses is patience!!! That is one thing I have learned and am still learning through this entire adventure. Cody and I have had to be patient and wait for results from tests, wait for my body to heal, and still waiting to see what our future holds. We are also learning to trust God more. I was reminded over the past several weeks that I am not in control of what happens in my life...GOD is in control!!! HE is in control of our future and He knows what our future holds. One of the biggest things I have learned is LOVE!!! I never thought I could love something as much as I love Tinlee!! From the moment we found out I was pregnant, I loved that little baby inside of me!!! I have had several people tell me that we will "love" and "appreciate" our next baby even more!! At first my mind could not fathom loving another child even more, but now I get that statement!!! I know that I will appreciate our next child even more!! I won't take the little things for granted....Tinlee has shown me an even bigger picture of what LOVE really is and I thank her for that. She has made me look at the "brighter" and more "positive" side to things.
    
     Yesterday our entire church service was on HOPE....HOPE for our future!!!! I know the main point was that when we are in bad situations that we always have HOPE that we will see our Heavenly Father one day. As I was sitting there listening I started tearing up at the thought of seeing our Heavenly Father, but also at the thought of seeing my baby girl. I imagined for so long what she would look like when she was born and what she would look like when she was older....I know what she looked like when she was born, but I am going to have to continue waiting to see what she will look like when she is older....but one day I WILL get to see her and I long for that moment everyday!!!

    Thank you for reading my blogs!! I hope you continue to enjoy them and I hope they aren't too depressing to read:) Please please please continue to pray for Cody and I and our families. We need prayers everyday, because even though I know everyone else has gone on with their lives, we are still trying to figure out how to go on with ours without Tinlee. In everything that we do we think that Tinlee is suppose to be doing these things with us and she's not!!! The holidays are coming up quickly, and to be perfectly honest I am not looking forward to them this year!! I had pictured our holidays this year being so exciting and even more fun because we would have a little baby to play with. I love you all and thank you for your continued thoughts and prayers!!

 

"Everything that was written in the past was written to teach us. The Scriptures give us patience and encouragement so that we can have hope."

Romans 15: 4