Can you be a Mother when your baby is not with you?
I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today.
I asked "What makes a mother?"
and I know I heard Him say,
"A mother has a baby".
This we know is true.
"But God, can you be a mother when your baby's not with you?"
"Yes you can!!" He replied with confidence in His voice.
"I give many women babies, when they leave is not their choice....Some I send for a lifetime,and others for the day and some I send to feel your womb, but there's no need to stay".
"I just don't understand this God, I want my baby to be here."
He took a deep breath and cleared His throat, and then I saw the tear...
"I wish I could show you, what your child is doing today. If you could see your child's smile, with all the other children and hear them say....."
"We go to earth to learn our lessons of love and life and fear. My mommy loved me oh so much, I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a mom who had so much love for me. I learned my lessons very quickly, my mommy set me free. I miss my mommy oh so much but I visit her everyday.
When she goes to sleep on her pillows where I lay, I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek, and whisper in her ear,
"Mommy don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I'm here."
"So you see my dear sweet one, your children are ok.
Your babies are born in my home and this is where they'll stay.
They'll wait for you with me until your lessons through.
And on the day that you come home they'll be at the gates for you.
So now you see what makes a mother...
It's the love you had so much of right from the very start.
Though some on earth may not realize you are a mother until their time is done.
They'll be up here with me one day and know that you are the best one."
I have to say that as I sit here typing this my eyes are blurry from crying. I know I will see Tinlee someday, but right now in this moment I hurt so bad because I want to see her and hold her. I know that is my selfish side, but it's just the truth. I do get comfort in knowing she is in a happy place and this little story reminded me of that. In my devotional this morning, this was the scripture that I read and I know there is HOPE in my future that I WILL see Tinlee again one day and HOPE that while I wait here on earth that my story in life is not over. I know there are happier days to come.....
"May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father encourage you and strengthen you in every good thing you do and say. God loved us, and through his grace he gave us a good HOPE and encouragement that continues forever"
2 Thessalonians 2: 16-17
2 Thessalonians 2: 16-17
