This weekend I got asked for the first time if I had any children. I honestly froze for a second and didn't know what to say. I knew that person didn't want to hear my answer and I also knew that I couldn't deny that question either. I looked at him and said with a small smile " Yes, we have a sweet little girl in Heaven with Jesus". He looked at me for a moment and quickly said he was sorry. Im not sure either one of us new what to say after that. It was a little awkward!! I so wish those situations weren't like that. The only way to make it not awkward is to say "No, we dont have children", but I just can't do that!!! The thought of denying that we have Tinlee just makes me sick inside. Makes me feel like her life wasnt for a purpose. Her life was most definitely a purpose!!!
Cody and I have been having better days. I get little emails or text messages everyday from different people that just say they are thinking about us and they are praying for us still. That still helps us more than you know. It's nice to know that we are still thought about. People even tell me that they go see Tinlee at the cemetery and that just makes my heart melt. I remember when I was pregnant with her and I looked forward to the days that people would come see her. I know that it is different but just to now that she gets visitors there warms my heart and just reminds me again that people love us and her and that she is still impacting people's lives more than I ever could of imagined. Today in my devotional I read this scripture and I hope it touches you as much as it touched me!!!
"We have troubles all around us, but we are not defeated. We do not know what to do, but we do not give up the hope of living. We are persecuted, but God does not leave us. We hurt sometimes, but we a not destroyed. " 2 Corinthians 4:8-9 (NCV)
